you were in here but i have to bury the dream

nampucha! as in -wanna know the latest? i dont wish to know either.
napamura ako sa hinagpis at sakit ng kalooban ko huhuhu ..
I saw them together.-gumuho na mundo ko..gumuho pati taba ko-well konti lng,
i can't think of anything right now..eerrr  alam ko naman we all have right to choose  waahhh bat ganun..
I can say i regret some events recently na sana di na lng kami nag kakilala.
sana alam mo to ha..i just wish right now i never got the chance of knowing you ..and so on and so on..and so on..
What the F? noon as in di kita nakikita..lahat pati mga kasama mo..sabi kasi nila..bat ka ganyan? bat ka ganito? 
e di sinagot ko mga hinagpis nyo. ano napala ko ngayon? haayy di naman ako nag sisisi..kasoo!!!
Im just broken,di lng broken-shattered pa.and melted na rin haaiisstt
stupid love talaga ewan GGrrr galit lng ako right now its infuriating meehh
tormented 4 am just I wish..i wish i will turn into a stone..manhid- 
pwede ba maging bato na lng? 

enter my dreams..

my thoughts are racing around my head

and you're one of them.

I don't want to be alone..

sometimes i just wish i could grab you just to be with me

and i can say I will be fine..

aarrgghhh this is crazy!! 

what the..??

i just want to scream out your name --but i can't ..

they know you.-well some of them..

you dont even have a clue,If you noticed that..i can say you are great!

my sweet one.. hope you understand

i had this crazy idea -i asked your friend to relay the message..

its a failure..

i hope someday you will realize..

im not just crazy about you..

i do care..and i needed to show it..

well im doing it right now..

you're just to numb.and insensitive??

no..its me- being stupid.. and scared 

to tell ....

ok enough with these words..

just enter my wild night-in my dreams

ughh U make me nervous..

I can't say im shaking.

rather i'd be speechless-i can't say anything! just a normal conversation WTH?

what makes you do that to me? oh yeah You got me there staring at you like an idiot.like a hypnotized person following you around

after-all i realize you're just my huge crush for now..

the whole personality blew me away. plus the killer smile..sigh..and another sigh

this is not good i know Im saying this to my blogs rather say it you directly..

this is not normal to me at all..

I just wish you'd be a little considerate about how i feel..

everytime you showed up,you making me nervous..

what the hell?

i kept asking myself ..why U??

over and over..what i discovered from you that i kept digging your whole life instead.

its like begging for your attention yet you don't even know..

STUPID right?

i even asked your closest friend for advise..even my own 

i got answer and im not happy to hear those words--like try to switch your mind to someone else..

naahhhh..i found myself looking for answers..

its hard ..trying to dictate your mind..or your heart!

I'd rather be a stubborn trying to know you more,

i'd rather be like an idiot following you around,

than pretending to like somebody like this much.

because of YOU..

my heart pumping in chaos

whenever i heard you coming..

then you threw a quick glance.

i secretly felt pleasure

at the back of my mind ,God how i wish i could say it.

right now..

a little complicated i suppose..

sometimes i tried to take a risk

: to hell with it" 

im going to talk to you and try to win you over that person you don't even know by culture..

who knows? maybe in a twist it will make you realize how much attention I've given just to make you feel special..

how would you know ..i never got the chance to show it..

instead its all coming in a message -like a metaphor..

comes with dual meaning..that made you wonder ..

why I behave that way?

I hope you knew i was just showing my care..

sometimes i just thought ...

i wish I never got the chance of knowing a wonderful person like you

coz its difficult to turn down a person so bad when actually its the best i've known..

it was you .who made me realize ..

that not all people are the same ass__t..or even annoying..

you became an eye-opener for me..

i let my self free

because of YOU...

I can smile -a real smile..

i hope someday you will realize how i wrote this..

out of desperation..well in fact all of those written out in misery turned out good enough than pretending..

siyet..sana alam mo kung sino ka..kasi akoy natutunaw na parang kandila..eheemm