Showing posts with label just a thought. Show all posts
Showing posts with label just a thought. Show all posts

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

blogs? anyone...

wrtting..blogs..i just loved it..better than any drug or medication..i will write a s often as i can from now on, and yes I have more time to think what to write.makes me feel alive and existing in some other way.
and yes im on twitter too..not a regular visitor on tweets but..from time to time im checking ..who's checking who..
people might wonder..im seeking attention ..that's why im writting blogs..no..no..no...
this is my way of expressing what i feel at the moment.that's why we call it blogging.
long time ago we had diaries,notebooks to fill up..or just a normal pen and paper to write what we feel.
like a theraphy..no need to go to expensive therapist..and receive prescriptions saying "take this tablet once a week ( like for example Prozac)  yes it helped a little ..but that didn't help your purse to relax...
its so F__ng expensive prescribed medicine!.. and yes you need to go to a therapist , you will be charged...
so I decided to do some self-medication...thru blogs and everything that can help to keep our sanity safe.
yes I admit im feeling so down lately..I've made a decision, in a snap.
not really thinking what happens next?  or will I hurt some people I know. in the end I made that stupid mistake..
I've lost a couple of friendship before..never could I imagine this made a huge impact in my life.
I don't know what I'm thinking that time ..but i got the urge to show just what i feel..-is that wrong?
I believe even a tiny little thing wants to be loved..and we are all free to show it.
I've been so careless. I can't deny the fact Im always careless for my actions. like,the words coming out from my mouth, I "ve been so un-kind lately....and yes.. i can be so damn sweet.I will show it in a real way..not pretending just to be LIKED..or win your heart..If I don't feel like doing it..I don't go for it...
Forgive me for my recent actions...but I do know I've been trying to prove myself that I can be useful too.
....been bashed ,lashed before you know it..and I fall so many times..lately..I just received a nasty comment, "
my blogs are written by a person seeking ,desperately looking for attention...hell no....
this is my way of expressing,and I keep on insisting this is like theraphy.
a situation. like,
one nyt I was standing looking for that sparkling star..or I don't know maybe that tiny little planet Venus visible from our atmosphere, I made it a habit, when you feel bad..just look for your favorite star...and let your tears flow ..You will feel better.
blogs can do real theraphy..you go online,you dig your emotions..and voila! there are words written according to its event.I dont want my body and my mind collide without shouting,that  made me crazy.that's why i rely on writting,I don't care if its written in a different form,but I want to show it.

and my friends, as I want everyone to think Im just a crazy,looking-damn-sweet,gaga....I have been thru difficult situations which is hurtful, and I'm full of good intentions.
If I offended that much..pls forgive me..coz I'm trying feel human too..but being so careless..yes i totally admit.
maybe I was to confident,and in a positive way of thinking it will be ok.

goodnyt my friends,
prettykiray.



Tuesday, August 9, 2011

like i have to endure it!! aahhhh

ok i know your life is perfect..no mistakes..all good stuff coming in to you..i can say- bwisit ka!
just mind your own monkey-business..
and with messing my life already--i get it--your pretty life with full roses is perfect..
like I care..
i don't get your intention of getting your advises..coz your life also is full of ass_ F__g s__t --there..
and mind you...
your  personal problems are not mine..so mine is not yours either--so could you just  SHUT UP!!! AND DO YOUR thing..
why is it difficult to mind your own pig-business..right now -you just gave me the ultimate nerve-wrecking --hello...im not messing with you
im not giving you shit..or im not minding your own personal life..so try to grab some control..and be a person that every other person should treat you good as well..
you piece of a waste..SA MADALING SALITA- PAKILAMERA~RO... THERE..
i hope you got this right..
stop judging me.and enjoy life...( i dont want to end up depressed like you..like a piece of nerd-fuckin loser.

Saturday, August 6, 2011

if life is for rent..

sometimes i believe in that part of the song -i dont know if you remember Dido,the one who sing this song Life for rent..
if life really is for rent ? can we afford to rent ..anyting from starting from happiness.. we have wide ipinions about happiness..(sigh)  who doesn't want a dose of being happy?
is it really hard to achieve--kakaluurrkkkyyy
i've been chasing this word for life!
i needed a room to keep and save some of it..and i needed to keep it for good..
i don;t want to loose it.
I will pay the price just to get it.
coz that's what matters most.
i wouldn't even trade it for something fancy..fancy is a funny thing..its fooling you . its a traitor..and its dark..
i knw..the rent is too high--to hell with it--but im getting it right now..
im gonna pay my rent--for my happiness..
with what i had been through...i think i've had enough..
i have to grab this chance--otherwise i might take the wrong turn..
got tired of loosing my mind ..mostly hehe.
what can i say???  i dont complain that much..
but i think i do have the right to be happy..